finally

Why only until now that I realized that everything just cant get back in track anymore? Why only until now that I realized what people said are true? Why only until now that I realized that... Why only when I see it, then I dare to accept the facts? Why Im fucking lonely? Why I am fucking depressed just because of you? Why?

Dear God

I dont know where or how to start but i dont know whether you will help me or not too, because i keep wasting your time, but i know your patient already to me, because until now im still alive because of your grace, God, i wish you will help me bless me and make me not that lonely anymore, i love you God,

You Are My Hiding Place

God,

Im so confused what should I do in my life, what can i do?Im so afraid , i dont know what i want Lord, really... i feel so insecure, what should i do? i know every single day i sinned against you, i feel so bad, im so bad, lord, teach me to love you please, and to trust you, and really guide me...