Another letter to you

urghhh, hmmm, here i am again dear diary, writting a letter to you. Im burdened again. 3 weeks just seems so long for me, and its only the third day now. I wish I can be more normal sometimes. Im really hoping I can be a nicer person tho Lord....

Dear God

Dear God, I know no matter how many times Im gonna ask you. You are just going to answer me one thing which is 'Do not worry' eheh. Hmmm. Well, still worried ahahh. I wish I can be a lil more serious about my career, my life and YOU. sigh.. Why Im sooo hmmm useless.. well, well, thats what I feel now anyway. I feel like Im wasting my everyday without doing anything. I feel extremely bored everyday, scared and yet I didnt do anything about it. Well, you see, my biggest problem is money :( really wish I could do something about it. God, I really wish I can take over this house rental contract. Dear God, please bless ma life. I know your blessing me all the way already. Give me courage to face all these new things and every new day and I wanted to love you more and more day by day. I know theres so many obstacle waiting me out there each day. Dont leave me Lord. Im learning to invite you more and more into my life. Jesus, I love you. I read some article last few days. Haha. Yeah, it makes a lot of sense. It cheers me up actually bahahax. I should learn to trust you more and more each day by day. Somehow in my heart I know I overcome because I have you here to bless me. I wish I can learn to be more like you. A helpful kind and beautiful from inner me. Jesus. Your gonna help me right? I wanna thank you for the nice riceeee.. hehe. nice food, and most important I wake up alive. Guess my biggest wish is really to make it to heaven to be with you. I have so many wishes in my heart, so many , so many. Wanted you to be there with me in my every second, every wish, and every thought. Be with me Jesus... Love ya :) Miss ya :) <3<3<3

Goodnite

Goodnite Jesus,

Thank you for everything. Protect me ya Jesus <3

IMAGINE ME WITHOUT YOU (With Lyrics) - Jaci Velasquez

Happy New Year Jesus!!

Father,
Thank you because You give me breath right here right now 2012 hehe. Your really so good to me. Years passed. Time passed. And right at this moment Im here writting to you. I love you. Youve always been my first love, always there deep in my heart. I really couldnt imagine my life without you. Haha! Am I flirting with you too right now?? I love you Daddy. Thank you for giving me eyes to see you and your wonders. Thank you for giving me ears letting me hear wonderful songs about you, claiming you, praising you. Thank you for giving me nose to smell nice foods, smell your wonderfully arted work. Thank you!! Thank you!! I know youve always been there for me. You are always the One appeared when I need help, when Im deeply hurt, when I feel damn lonely. Ive never realized how much I need you. Im so confused. Jesus, your too beautiful seriously hehe. I keep searching for hugs, for that warmth, sigh,, found non... I need you!! Walk with me now and forever after...

Daddy...
Happy New Year (^_^)