Today Vs Past

Im married.

I still feel a bit puzzled. Perhaps asking myself if Im dreaming, sometimes. Finally. Ive never thought that I will marry to this guy of my life. Maybe Ive always thought I dont deserve someone as good as my husband. But thank God.. looking back, I cant think of anything except that thanking God for arranging everything for me. Giving me, perfecting my soul. Oh God, I wanna worship you, wanna serve you, want to be the women you desire me to be. I want to walk with you, walk for you. Please remind me that your my daily breath and the only food I ever wanted.

Father,

I really wish and wish that you can bless my marriage with a child. A child of my own, of our own.

Always be with me Jesus because Im gonna be lost without you.. I need you every single second. I love you Abba Father... just wanna thank you Jesus for all that youve given me...

Love,
Chloe
Your Child

Life is so short

A thousands years by Christina Perri pictures the love of vampires that already lived thousands years. Yesterday, my husband sing this song and I ask him will you love me a thousand years. He answered me more than that. We look at each other and realized how short how short is life... 100 years? I doubt it.. Life is so short. Jesus, Im worried. Im very scared. MH370, MH17 really make me realize how short is life. We, human planned everything without knowing whats happening next. Im trying to get back to you, reading bible, writting this small diaries hoping too whoever in the world who share the same thought with me may read this. Its really sad to know that Im sinning each day. I feel so insecure especially during the nights. The loneliness i felt, deep inside my heart, the uncertainty. Not many people may understand why I worried so much but Im very scared to picture myself dying without you Jesus and that is the fact. God please help me. I really hope that I can repent and be born again. So that I can bring my loved ones to you too. Please minister to me and my loved ones O Lord. Please Lord keep me in your arms, hold my hands, please be with me..do not give up on me. Teach me to love you, over and over again. I read Your Word today..Love is kind, Love is patient, Love do not keep wrong records, Love perserves, perfect love casts fear away. How much how much I need this word.... Dear Lord, Please remind me about your love everyday in my life.. Please plant this kind of love in my heart. Chloe