Lord

Lord,

It's really scary when I think how I should go on my future alone... but please give me strength to go on, give me strength to stay on, never leaves me alone, My Lord

Mercy, Love

Lord,

I want a loving heart, and merciful heart, a heart after You, After God ....

God,

Bless me, my heart, in everything I do, guide me in my way, teach me, teach me how to love you and people around me ...

Because of Love

Because of Mercy

Because of You

Jesus

God...

Forgiveness, Hope, Trust, Love, Faith

Without you,

Lord....

I walk through my everyday life sinning, everyday hating, everyday insecure, everyday's a tiring day for me, each day...

God,

How can I ever get back to you, your sound, your just seem so far away from me... Everyday, Im just like looking into a mirror, I noticed all of my sins, all seems so clear in front of my eyes, whenever i did anything, but..Lord, how come like I just cant seem to do anything about it.

I wish so many things I can change about myself and I wish there's so many things I can do for you, but everything seems so hard, seems so impossible for me..I thought perhaps it's because of my job, I cant serve you, or bunch of excuses, I wanted to go near you, to live in you, to live like what you wanted...

I love you Jesus, and I longed to love you

Hope

Dear God,

I dont know what's the future lay ahead of me..but I wish O God, your always there for me...there to walk with me, talk to me, and teach me...God, Ive walked through certain lust in this world, but yet I found no peace in that, no security, no love..and I get fed up through all that..

God,

I wish you put love in my heart, I wish you put peace in my heart, I wish you bring me back O Lord..I wish one day I can stand in front of you, being proud for being your child, and proudly I call you my Father...Only in you, I find whom Im belong to..Father God, bless me, my heart, and make me a blessing to all people around me..

Your my hope, and only through you I found hope...

Jesus,

How I wish Im still your child, your friend, your love..........

Emptiness

God,

I miss you too much

O God...

God,
Im so tired of this feeling, tired of waiting for something uncertain, tired of hoping for something impossible, but..how Im gonna get rid of this feeling, so tired, too tired, yet I cant help, I lose control over myself, what Im gonna do O God...

I Can Only Imagine

I can only imagine....

God,
I can only imagine....

A letter to Dad ...

Perhaps it's so dark, perhaps it's empty, perhaps it's cold, perhaps it's another sorry, or perhaps it's all a lie....

Lord,
Im so sad, so sorry, so bad... Im clueless of what Im doing, what I did, and what I want to do, Im so far from you, Im so scared, so confused, I wanted to tell you, but Im afraid I couldnt hear you or even if I can hear you, Im so scared to rely on your decisions... Why now my life seems a total mess? You want to know what... I feel so lonely, so depressed, so dull, and so insecure deep within my soul... and I couldnt help but feel so sorry to him, O God, for all that Ive done, betraying his love, and even after he knew all that I've done, he's willing to forgive me, love me and start all over with me once again.. I know hes so broken, so sad... O God, my heart pains so much, and it hurts me so much, what should I do O My Lord......

And I know Ive hurt You so much God...I chosed the path of my life, to be away from you, and You started to fade away slowly yet I dont realized how much loss in my soul without You in my everyday life, without Your whisper, Your smile, Your touch, Your guidance and Your blessings upon my day... apart of all that, Im still enjoying the lust of this world, make a relationship, and be sad, then maybe I will have a glance of you in my thought, I realized Im so far so far away from you, from your holiness, from your light, from your glory... Seems like Im heading to hell, I think myself, Everyday I asked you to give me time, give me just another little time to fix everything out but all seems like lie after lie to you....

Lord,
What should I do? I feel like I lose everything in my life, I lose you, I dont have anything, and I dont know how to fix everything out...Jesus, could you please give me strength? Could you please tell me what to do? Could you please cure me? Could you please forgive me? Could you please open my eyes? Could you please dont leave me?

I've hurt you so much, and one word he said tucked my heart so deep... I asked him after all that Ive done, why still he dont leave me? Why still he loves me so much? He told me, then you need to ask Jesus why he still love the world so much after all we've done and he told me he started to feel a little bit perhaps of Your pain on the cross, the betrayal, Jesus, I dont deserve his love, I dont deserve all these kindness...who am I that You sent such a good person in my life, who am I O God? Why Your so good to me, so kind to me, I saw this blessing when Im in the worst state... O God...

Without You in my life Jesus, everyday I live in fear, fear what if I die now, and it happens I cant see you, my conscience keep judging me, Im so tired of sinning, of this life...

Jesus,
Please heal me, help me, and open my eyes...

Jesus.....JESUS

Jesus,

Im so so sad right now, so sad, I cant take this anymore Lord, Im such a sinner, Im such a betrayer, Jesus....

What I should do Jesus, Please tell me, and yes, I promise you, I will do whatever you tell me, but how to hear or look for your answer O Lord? Im so confused now, I've been so far away from you Lord, Im so empty, so empty, I dont know what Im gonna do now, Please help me Jesus, Please....Please protect me O Lord, guide me, and lead me again to you ... because I really cant stand this anymore...

Im really so sorry Jesus

Where are you Jesus?

Jesus, your always beautiful, so beautiful, I guess that's the reason I miss you so much?