God,
Im so tired of this feeling, tired of waiting for something uncertain, tired of hoping for something impossible, but..how Im gonna get rid of this feeling, so tired, too tired, yet I cant help, I lose control over myself, what Im gonna do O God...
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
A letter to Dad ...
Perhaps it's so dark, perhaps it's empty, perhaps it's cold, perhaps it's another sorry, or perhaps it's all a lie....
Lord,
Im so sad, so sorry, so bad... Im clueless of what Im doing, what I did, and what I want to do, Im so far from you, Im so scared, so confused, I wanted to tell you, but Im afraid I couldnt hear you or even if I can hear you, Im so scared to rely on your decisions... Why now my life seems a total mess? You want to know what... I feel so lonely, so depressed, so dull, and so insecure deep within my soul... and I couldnt help but feel so sorry to him, O God, for all that Ive done, betraying his love, and even after he knew all that I've done, he's willing to forgive me, love me and start all over with me once again.. I know hes so broken, so sad... O God, my heart pains so much, and it hurts me so much, what should I do O My Lord......
And I know Ive hurt You so much God...I chosed the path of my life, to be away from you, and You started to fade away slowly yet I dont realized how much loss in my soul without You in my everyday life, without Your whisper, Your smile, Your touch, Your guidance and Your blessings upon my day... apart of all that, Im still enjoying the lust of this world, make a relationship, and be sad, then maybe I will have a glance of you in my thought, I realized Im so far so far away from you, from your holiness, from your light, from your glory... Seems like Im heading to hell, I think myself, Everyday I asked you to give me time, give me just another little time to fix everything out but all seems like lie after lie to you....
Lord,
What should I do? I feel like I lose everything in my life, I lose you, I dont have anything, and I dont know how to fix everything out...Jesus, could you please give me strength? Could you please tell me what to do? Could you please cure me? Could you please forgive me? Could you please open my eyes? Could you please dont leave me?
I've hurt you so much, and one word he said tucked my heart so deep... I asked him after all that Ive done, why still he dont leave me? Why still he loves me so much? He told me, then you need to ask Jesus why he still love the world so much after all we've done and he told me he started to feel a little bit perhaps of Your pain on the cross, the betrayal, Jesus, I dont deserve his love, I dont deserve all these kindness...who am I that You sent such a good person in my life, who am I O God? Why Your so good to me, so kind to me, I saw this blessing when Im in the worst state... O God...
Without You in my life Jesus, everyday I live in fear, fear what if I die now, and it happens I cant see you, my conscience keep judging me, Im so tired of sinning, of this life...
Jesus,
Please heal me, help me, and open my eyes...
Lord,
Im so sad, so sorry, so bad... Im clueless of what Im doing, what I did, and what I want to do, Im so far from you, Im so scared, so confused, I wanted to tell you, but Im afraid I couldnt hear you or even if I can hear you, Im so scared to rely on your decisions... Why now my life seems a total mess? You want to know what... I feel so lonely, so depressed, so dull, and so insecure deep within my soul... and I couldnt help but feel so sorry to him, O God, for all that Ive done, betraying his love, and even after he knew all that I've done, he's willing to forgive me, love me and start all over with me once again.. I know hes so broken, so sad... O God, my heart pains so much, and it hurts me so much, what should I do O My Lord......
And I know Ive hurt You so much God...I chosed the path of my life, to be away from you, and You started to fade away slowly yet I dont realized how much loss in my soul without You in my everyday life, without Your whisper, Your smile, Your touch, Your guidance and Your blessings upon my day... apart of all that, Im still enjoying the lust of this world, make a relationship, and be sad, then maybe I will have a glance of you in my thought, I realized Im so far so far away from you, from your holiness, from your light, from your glory... Seems like Im heading to hell, I think myself, Everyday I asked you to give me time, give me just another little time to fix everything out but all seems like lie after lie to you....
Lord,
What should I do? I feel like I lose everything in my life, I lose you, I dont have anything, and I dont know how to fix everything out...Jesus, could you please give me strength? Could you please tell me what to do? Could you please cure me? Could you please forgive me? Could you please open my eyes? Could you please dont leave me?
I've hurt you so much, and one word he said tucked my heart so deep... I asked him after all that Ive done, why still he dont leave me? Why still he loves me so much? He told me, then you need to ask Jesus why he still love the world so much after all we've done and he told me he started to feel a little bit perhaps of Your pain on the cross, the betrayal, Jesus, I dont deserve his love, I dont deserve all these kindness...who am I that You sent such a good person in my life, who am I O God? Why Your so good to me, so kind to me, I saw this blessing when Im in the worst state... O God...
Without You in my life Jesus, everyday I live in fear, fear what if I die now, and it happens I cant see you, my conscience keep judging me, Im so tired of sinning, of this life...
Jesus,
Please heal me, help me, and open my eyes...
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Jesus.....JESUS
Jesus,
Im so so sad right now, so sad, I cant take this anymore Lord, Im such a sinner, Im such a betrayer, Jesus....
What I should do Jesus, Please tell me, and yes, I promise you, I will do whatever you tell me, but how to hear or look for your answer O Lord? Im so confused now, I've been so far away from you Lord, Im so empty, so empty, I dont know what Im gonna do now, Please help me Jesus, Please....Please protect me O Lord, guide me, and lead me again to you ... because I really cant stand this anymore...
Im really so sorry Jesus
Im so so sad right now, so sad, I cant take this anymore Lord, Im such a sinner, Im such a betrayer, Jesus....
What I should do Jesus, Please tell me, and yes, I promise you, I will do whatever you tell me, but how to hear or look for your answer O Lord? Im so confused now, I've been so far away from you Lord, Im so empty, so empty, I dont know what Im gonna do now, Please help me Jesus, Please....Please protect me O Lord, guide me, and lead me again to you ... because I really cant stand this anymore...
Im really so sorry Jesus
Where are you Jesus?
Jesus, your always beautiful, so beautiful, I guess that's the reason I miss you so much?
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Do I love you Jesus?
Jesus,
It's been a long time since I wrote about you, I go through day by day, and seems like you start fading from my life, your image still looks pretty clear at first until i really can feel it fading day by day, I can see that, feel that and I can even touch the emptiness in my heart, It seems like there's nothing I can do to fill the big hole in my heart, Once I felt your love, your touch, I heard your voice...truly I felt that I'm free, Love that you pour out on me richly casts all the fear from me...
Jesus,
I want to tell you I miss you so much, I want you back in my life..your always faithful, your always there waiting to pick me up, always there....waiting
Jesus,
Now I cant no longer live without you, I know your still there, I love you Jesus, I want to tell you I love you..I know I love you because
I feel sad when I realized I hurt you so many times, I feel sad because I've been ignoring you, I feel sad, Jesus....something just so special about your name
I need you Jesus, Jesus....Please dont leave me because I love you, I want to be with you forever...
Chloe
It's been a long time since I wrote about you, I go through day by day, and seems like you start fading from my life, your image still looks pretty clear at first until i really can feel it fading day by day, I can see that, feel that and I can even touch the emptiness in my heart, It seems like there's nothing I can do to fill the big hole in my heart, Once I felt your love, your touch, I heard your voice...truly I felt that I'm free, Love that you pour out on me richly casts all the fear from me...
Jesus,
I want to tell you I miss you so much, I want you back in my life..your always faithful, your always there waiting to pick me up, always there....waiting
Jesus,
Now I cant no longer live without you, I know your still there, I love you Jesus, I want to tell you I love you..I know I love you because
I feel sad when I realized I hurt you so many times, I feel sad because I've been ignoring you, I feel sad, Jesus....something just so special about your name
I need you Jesus, Jesus....Please dont leave me because I love you, I want to be with you forever...
Chloe
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
MEXICO....PLEASE REPENT!
we all know that swine flu is spreading all over the world now. It's another sign form our LORD GOD!There are very large population of catholic in Mexico. This swine flu disease may be a warning from God that we all should stop worshipping idol.
Catholic worship the statue and worship Mary as the Mother of God!I was even told by my friend before that they need to pray to Mary so that she would ask forgiveness to God for our sins. God are too angry to us that Mary has to ask forgiveness for our sins. Is this accepted, my friend? We all know that God is God of love and Love that brought him down to this world to suffer from us so that we might be made clean through his precious blood! When we worship God, it is better that we worship him in spirit and in truth..for this is what that Jesus desire..He desire our heart and our willingness..not the same prayer each time we seek him! Don't be like the pharisees in the bible who like to pray the same thing over and over again like the pagan! What is it means to accept Jesus Christ into our life..it is not a religion but a personal relation with the creator of this universe!
Catholic believe there is pulgutory too...and this is the very deception from Satan! When we die, there's only two place where we go for eternal: heaven and hell! There are no pulgutory..and priest can't forgive your sins...only God can forgive your sins..Catholic had misunderstood confession of sins and repentance! Confession won't save you from hell but only repentance that can saves you from hell, dear! Catholic always thought that once they confess their sins to the priest, they are free from sins and this made them continue living in sins and just undergo confession once a week...this is the biggest lie from Satan dear!
Besides, catholic have to undergo many process too before they are allowed to eat the holy communion. While we usually can eat it once we baptized..and it made it so difficult to approach God! We don't need to do that..
brother and sisters,
open your eyes..don't live under the chain anymore..Jesus is the freedon!
Jesus is the only way to heaven and to the Father..not Mary, non but Jesus alone hold the keys to heaven! Mary can't save you from hell nor she is the queen of heaven..she too had to win her own salvation! Please stop worshipping Mary nor calling her the Mother of God! Can God had a mother? Jesus are from the very beginning and Mary are created by Jesus..then how can she be the mother of God?
Stop worshipping the statue of Jesus
Is Jesus made of wood or statue? NO. He is a true living God! If you too worshipping the statue, then what are the difference between you and the idol worshipper! And the very first commandment of God..is that we should not have any other God than Jesus alone! Worshipping idol is very great sin in God's sight..please repent or God's wrath will remain on you!
Open your heart now, my dear friend to accept the true Jesus into your life! Jesus is alive, He is living God and he is God! He hear all your prayer..free yourself from all those law that chain or burden you..for the purpose of Jesus coming to this world is to free us from all those law. Our God desire a personal relationship with us and want us to worship him in truth and in spirit! Jesus is love and are willing to forgive all your sins..He is IN LOVE with you!
Catholic worship the statue and worship Mary as the Mother of God!I was even told by my friend before that they need to pray to Mary so that she would ask forgiveness to God for our sins. God are too angry to us that Mary has to ask forgiveness for our sins. Is this accepted, my friend? We all know that God is God of love and Love that brought him down to this world to suffer from us so that we might be made clean through his precious blood! When we worship God, it is better that we worship him in spirit and in truth..for this is what that Jesus desire..He desire our heart and our willingness..not the same prayer each time we seek him! Don't be like the pharisees in the bible who like to pray the same thing over and over again like the pagan! What is it means to accept Jesus Christ into our life..it is not a religion but a personal relation with the creator of this universe!
Catholic believe there is pulgutory too...and this is the very deception from Satan! When we die, there's only two place where we go for eternal: heaven and hell! There are no pulgutory..and priest can't forgive your sins...only God can forgive your sins..Catholic had misunderstood confession of sins and repentance! Confession won't save you from hell but only repentance that can saves you from hell, dear! Catholic always thought that once they confess their sins to the priest, they are free from sins and this made them continue living in sins and just undergo confession once a week...this is the biggest lie from Satan dear!
Besides, catholic have to undergo many process too before they are allowed to eat the holy communion. While we usually can eat it once we baptized..and it made it so difficult to approach God! We don't need to do that..
brother and sisters,
open your eyes..don't live under the chain anymore..Jesus is the freedon!
Jesus is the only way to heaven and to the Father..not Mary, non but Jesus alone hold the keys to heaven! Mary can't save you from hell nor she is the queen of heaven..she too had to win her own salvation! Please stop worshipping Mary nor calling her the Mother of God! Can God had a mother? Jesus are from the very beginning and Mary are created by Jesus..then how can she be the mother of God?
Stop worshipping the statue of Jesus
Is Jesus made of wood or statue? NO. He is a true living God! If you too worshipping the statue, then what are the difference between you and the idol worshipper! And the very first commandment of God..is that we should not have any other God than Jesus alone! Worshipping idol is very great sin in God's sight..please repent or God's wrath will remain on you!
Open your heart now, my dear friend to accept the true Jesus into your life! Jesus is alive, He is living God and he is God! He hear all your prayer..free yourself from all those law that chain or burden you..for the purpose of Jesus coming to this world is to free us from all those law. Our God desire a personal relationship with us and want us to worship him in truth and in spirit! Jesus is love and are willing to forgive all your sins..He is IN LOVE with you!
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